The ONE thing I wish I would have known about money when I started my business...

TO be honest with you, I wish that someone would have told me this..

When i started out my entrepreneurial journey ten years ago (am I aging myself? lol) I started a non profit organization.. And I was also in charge of fundraising (gagging in my mouth)..

I hated fundraising, because I hated trying to prove to people why they should donate their hard earned money to my cause..

But if I am really honest with you, its because I hated money.

I was terrified of money.. And it wasn’t until I hit my 90th rock bottom with money.. That I actually realized that I MYSELF was the problem.. Not anyone, any job, or any opportunities.

It was then that I was introduced (4 years ago) to subconscious healing.. And while I had been in therapy most of my life and even done therapies like EMDR + seen results, I never had experienced the results like what I have now, and I...

The ONE thing that is connected to your wealth.. more than you could ever imagine is..

> WHAT YOU VALUE

Do you know what you value?

This is the way that my husband and I were able to build a life from living in a friends upstairs guest room with our two kids and pregnant, a beater $1000 car that was gifted to us, and $600 to our name in income a month.. (yes that was real)

To now making average 20K+ months in my business, traveling the world with our 3 beautiful and healthy children, homeschooling them, retired my husband from his full time job + living in beautiful (and expensive) Sedona Arizona.

IT ALL STARTED WITH ONE THING.

WHAT DO WE VALUE?

This may not be what you value, and this is OK.. the whole entire point of this post is to get you back and centered into what YOU value, not Jenna.

The internet is SCREAMING at you every chance it gets to say.. THIS IS WHAT YOU SHOULD VALUE TO BUILD WEALTH! Buy the handbag! Buy the...

I spent the day crying feeling like a total failure.

How could I be 28 years old, and still doing the SAME exact thing I was doing with money when I was a kid?

I knew that if I batted my eyes a couple of times, and caught him at the RIGHT time.. That he would say yes.

He always said yes.

I realized, part of me actually loved this.

My dad, rescuing me financially..

I wondered at the time why it felt oddly good to feel the sense of shame I felt at the same time that I asked for the money… but I asked anyway.

He said yes, he always said yes...and I took it.

The cycle had happened so many times I was immune to it at this point, but I decided that I would do something different.

I decided that I would push PLAY on this free meditation that I had been given.

For whatever reason within moments I was transported back to seeing the world through seven-year-old me’s eyes.

I was under the tree,...

3 years ago I started this business after MANY businesses starting + failing..

And I knew that I wanted to start with a membership.

Perhaps the moment I FIRST fell in love with digital products was that launch when I pulled up my Kajabi account and created $600 of recurring revenue through my monthly membership.

This membership would require me to create a music playlist, teach once a month live + bring healing affirmations and tools inside the portal to each client for $25/mo.

I realized I could create something ONCE + thus began the LOVE of passive income and digital product creation.

If I’m honest with you, the easiest part of the ENTIRE journey of my online coaching business has been the creation part. I’ve created over 7 large group programs, 2 years of masterminds and memberships, too many masterclass webinars to count, and countless upon countless content.

With SO much trial and error (I could probably write a book just on the “error” part) …

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and.. well what in the world even IS dissociation?

Lets set the scene.

Imagine you are going to a party.

You're kind of excited because you are seeing people you haven't in awhile, you're getting out of the house... YAY!

But you get there.

And its overwhelming to you.

its too loud, and there are too many people, you start to feel lonely in a big crowded room, wondering whats wrong with you.. and the energy just feels off.

You realize you have a couple more hours to fake it till you make it so you smile, get along with people, and rush out of there as soon as you can.

You feel exhausted when you get into the car, numb, foggy, and just out of it.

Someone may be in the car with you trying to talk to you, and you just bite their head off, because you just cant deal.

This is called dissociation.

Can I share with you what happened there?

In you childhood you experienced chaos.

It doesn't have to be my chaos. It was your chaos. Don't justify it, it just was what...

Wasn't it neat when you got to stay inside your ego box... point your fingers at those who were addicted to drugs & alcohol and sex... PHEW thank God that wasn't you ... right?

.... right.

Except. You're an addict too.

What is addiction anyways?

Why am I even talking about it?

Well my love.. where the world sees you as a helper, as a beautiful kind person... this is just because they have only seen the presentable side of your shadow. or the EGO . Or as I like to call her, my big sister.

Trust me when I Say that I don't say this to point fingers... or maybe I do. Either way, I say this because of all of the offenders... I WAS definitely one of them.

For 10 years I was a missionary, a non profit leader, a helper, a great wife, a great daughter, and a great mom by all the worlds standards. I spent the majority of my life helping others, standing on my soapbox to tell people about God (well the version that I thought was acceptable about God anyways) , and got a...

Surrender .

Because we have been taught our whole lives a way that things are “supposed” to be, we have a linear model for understanding things. Our entire world is set up for the conscious brain to thrive. Logic, Reason, Decision Making, Conscious thought.

But thats just not the new way.

The new way is intuition.

And intuition always looks like surrender.

Surrender to our highest self, and to our higher power.

And the thing is, our programming ALWAYS resists the surrender.

Why? Well because it's terrifying to the subconscious brain that tries to keep EVERYTHING the same, by controlling it.

Little by little we allow our subconscious to say yes to bigger and bigger boxes. Allowing what we think of ourselves, our world, our version of our higher power to expand.

Little by little now, we have resisted the change, little by little we have leaned in. Little by little we have allowed the growth to happen on a linear scale.

Except one thing.

Things are no longer...

I was moved yesterday by a post on a group I follow asking how all the empaths in the group were doing.

One because I work almost exclusively with empaths, but two... because what a beautiful time this is for empathic women to heal their inner child.

I thought I’d share a bit of my own journey here today to offer encouragement and hope to any other empaths who are struggling right now.

But first a side note::
We come here empathic.
Our families of origin typically didn’t allow for us to have our emotional needs met, because we learned at a young age that the emotional needs of other family members had to take presidence.

We learned to stuff our own emotions, dial them down, hide our gifts and talents , not shine too bright because we have to walk on eggshells emotionally to meet the needs of others. We became codependent in our relationships meaning.... how YOU FEEL is how I feel.... over time becoming extremely out of touch with our own emotions and bodies and becoming...

Here's whats happening.

We are in the middle of humanity rising in frequency of vibration, enlightenment, and creating a new earth.

Sounds cool right?

Well... my love.. we are in the phase of all of the things being cracked.

Imagine that the world that you know it as, your reality as you know it to be...

is a GLASS bubble.

Not a plastic-y one. A thick glass bubble.

One that you LOVE.

You love your bubble. We all do. We're safe in here.

What is happening....

Is a GIANT hammer is smashing that bubble.

It'll take a little time to crack, and my love unless you do the work to understand your consciousness, ego etc. its going to take longer and be a lot more painful than it has to be.

But the bubble is being cracked.

Every single system in society.. will shatter.

Why?

Well because there is a new way coming.

A new way of earth.

A new form of being.

A new way of operating.

And for new to happen.

Everything... has to die.

I know it feels... dramatic.

But there is no easy way to sugar...

I couldn't stop thinking about it, I haven't been able to sleep really, or get it all out of my head.

I turned off my social media, and tried to connect back with the earth, tried to compartmentalize, as I always do.. Issues of race, homophobia  and hatred in the world, and if I'm being really honest, within me.

It's so interesting that I can be awake to the injustice, to the hatred, to the systems that have literally been built on the backs of BIPOC backs and, yet.. still have the luxury of going to sleep at night not wondering if my kids are going to be safe at the end of all of this.

This my friends, is the very definition of white privilege. 

As sad as this is, I think white women struggle to listen and actually HEAR the voices of black women because we have been so trained to think that passion is aggression and not acceptable. We have been trained our whole lives to think that being woman means to be quiet, submissive, nurturing and complacent. We don't...